I decided that this was the perfect time to start writing a blog as I find myself a year and a bit away from Fifty. I wanted to find a way to embrace my age rather than continuously apologizing for it. (not that I really ever do apologize for it) But it seems the world wants you to worry about how young you look, and be afraid or ashamed to tell you your age. To buy every product to fix the fact you are aging, to fix your pictures to make you look younger and with people going as far as surgery to fix the inevitable. Maybe this aging thing is something we should possibly even consider feeling good about? Honestly I never really understood this craze and I think the whole world has gone a bit mad, keeping us from accepting ourselves and enjoying reality. I had zero control over when my parents decided to conjure me up, I have zero control over my genetic make up, and I have zero control over how time moves by at an uncanny speed!
What I do have control over is how I decide to view myself and the world around me. I can accept all parts of myself and continuously strive to make peace with all aspects of my life. I think anyone who expresses they have a perfect life is full of crap. Life can be great, but in times of great growth and contrast and loss, well... it is just sometimes messy, and that is ok. And from 40 to 50, well what a ride it has been. You can live your life however you wish, you can live it by accident or in fear. My life I wish to live as fully as possible and with as few regrets as possible and it is always a work in progress.
I have found filling my life with positive people and thoughts has been my best choice so far. Daring to dream and getting out of the way of all the good things, big and small that come into my life. New friends, old friends, family and loved ones, like the seasons they come and go, some are more intense, some are more memorable than others, some completely uneventful and always ever changing.
The Time Is Now ... for awhile I've been telling people I'm almost 50, Some cringe (which I don't quite understand) some people think I'm young and ironically most of the young people in my life seem not to care, (with exception of one 6yr old who was so blown away that I was 42years older than her, and also just as shocked that my oldest son was 23, which she could barely fathom. I didn't feel so bad when she asked another music student closer to my age if he was the same age as her... I knew at that point a she was still shy of that really good understanding of age! :)
It is time for me to move into a new way, in a new direction and to pick a new path. To chill out and Allow life to breath. This ride will be over before we know it and today is all anyone really has. FUN is the best three letter word you can find and comes in different forms for everyone! Finding your Fun should be a priority at every age and not forgotten as we get older, maybe it should become even more important?.
I love my work, teaching music to kids and people of all ages, I love performing music, I love writing in all forms and I love being around people. I love my life as crazy as it often looks to those who are around me and as busy or messy as it may get. I love my 4 sons, they have always been at the top of my life's list and the biggest and best part of my world and as nutty and busy as it was raising them it has been fascinating to watch them grow and make their own worlds and to watch their lives unfold.
Adventure... I Love Adventure... I always say you can never have too much adventure in your life which has been something I may have in some ways let go by the wayside over the past few years, however, even close to home my life always finds a way to be an adventure... and then there is sleeping! Life's perfect way to reboot, refresh and restart each morning. I have discovered this as one of life's greatest tools. No matter how good or bad the day was, a good sleep can fix it all!
So This is my blog, at Almost Fifty, I can't wait to begin and take you on some of the Fun Adventures, to share my thoughts and reflections and bring you my favourite places, introduce you to some of my favourite people and things! (things: to be determined!) Life is what you make it... so why not make it a great life, look forward and enjoy, roll with the punches and breath. Help your friends when they need it and let them help you when you are in need. So much to do and so little a time! You are the Captain of your Ship... So Sail On!!
Steph
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